⏳ Erebus Growing | 0024 - Trust the decisions you've already made

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It’s been a long week and the upcoming one is going to be even longer!

But! I’m heading into a vacation, so that’s going to be really enjoyable.

Downtime is always good and I plan to spend it wisely with my cats, family (for my birthday!), and working on personal projects.

I feel like my body has started to adjust to the 9-5 and the part-time, so that should be a little easier now.

I also should have some good news about my 9-5 coming up in terms of responsibility changes and, hopefully, a raise given those responsibility changes.

It’s been a bit difficult, but I’m still here, I’m still growing, and I’m still moving forward to my highest self.

That’s the only thing you cannot stop doing. Always, no matter what, keep moving toward your highest self.

👨🏻‍💻 Meditation

I spend a lot of time reconsidering my decisions in the moment when something is happening.

I know we all do, on some level.

This week, I was paid from my part-time job for the first time.

A couple of weeks ago I made a commitment to myself that I would put 30% of that paycheck aside for an emergency fund/investment and the other 70% would be used to pay down credit cards/personal loans.

There was a moment as my finger hovered over the Confirm Transfer button on Thursday when I was tempted to hit “Cancel.”

It was only $80 and I looked at it and said, “I really could buy a couple of things I need.”

But that’s how I got in this spot.

I didn’t have any type of emergency fund so, I put things on credit cards.

But this piece of advice came back to mind.

When you make decisions with a clear head, you’re able to see the bigger picture.

It’s a reason why habits are so useful. It allows you to complete typically small actions that multiply.

But they’re actions you decided on well before you faced the moment of truth: “Do I do this or not?”

At our core, is that conversation. Do we trust the decisions that we already made when we weren’t under any type of pressure?

I know that I think better when I’m not under pressure.

It’s why I’m working on plans—why businesses build standard operating procedures, continuity of operations plans, recovery plans, and so many others.

Let me think through some of the complicated stuff when I can not when I have to.

I’ll say it one more time because it’s become a mantra for me…but trust in the decisions you made with a clear head, not those made in the heat of the moment.

Oh, and I did hit Confirm Transfer and then went off to my 9-5 feeling much better that I had $80 set aside intentionally should something happen.

It’s not much, but it’s the start of a long journey ahead to $1.5 million which I’ll talk about soon.

📚 Inspiration and Resources
Every week we all consume content and I share my favorites here.

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I’ve been digging into my emails again with all of the newsletters I get. Adding in the part-time has gotten me to a point where I have to focus. Here’s an article that I pulled from Sahil Bloom on Character Invention. Something that I’ve unintentionally been exploring when acting as my ideal self. In short, when there are situations that require you to act a certain way (particularly if it’s at odds with how you typically act), create and put on a character who can own the space. Give it a read here.

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Another great article that popped up from a newsletter from Mitchell Wilson is talking about The Daily Maze. We all try to do better by doing more good things—eat healthier, exercise, spend less time doing this, spend more time doing that—it’s quite a cycle because we look at things on a long-term scale despite being stuck in the short-term time frame (it’s why we get so frustrated with lack of immediate results). Wilson talks about just getting through today avoiding the bad things rather than trying to do more good things. And, perhaps most importantly, that we only need to get through today. Give it a read here.

📓 Journaling Prompt
Journaling is one of the most important things to do when exploring our own lives. A new prompt for you to use this week is below.

Where have you recently second-guessed yourself after making a decision beforehand?

Until next time, I wish you enough and send you off with love and a sense of urgency in your life.