Welcome to Erebus Growing, a weekly email where I share little snippets of life to help you change and grow into your highest life.

Two days ago I had ten 30-minute interviews. Some went okay, a couple went really well, and others not so much. But every single one helped me solidify where I believe I want to head next.

This week, I have an on-campus interview for another position and it’s going to be very interesting to see how it compares.

But in all, things are moving quickly and I’m going to have to make a decision soon about what my next steps are in terms of career.

Beyond that, life is going well. The part-time will be picking up in the next three or four weeks. The current 9-5 is moving along and life continues.

👨🏻‍💻 Meditation

I’ve missed two days of sharing on 𝕏 and Threads at least once a day. Those two days were entirely unintentional which is good and bad.

Yesterday, I was thinking about my current search for my next 9-5 position when I shared.

It came from the feelings I’ve been having but didn’t know how to express.

My search right now is considering two opposite ends of the spectrum: one is a purely administrative position and the other is an incredibly involved position. Both are in the education world.

Part of me is excited about both, but I know that they are completely and entirely different.

If I pick the purely administrative position, it’s going to mean a loss to a new level of creativity and engagement with students as well as some benefits from housing and meals provided.

But, if I pick the incredibly involved position, it’s going to mean a loss to a large income and a huge and interesting location and all that comes with it.

No matter which I choose, there is a loss. And that loss holds the potential for grieving what could have been.

The question is, how do you grieve for the unknown?

With decisions like this, you make them based on two factors.

1. Are you excited about it?

2. Is it moving you toward your highest life?

I realized this past week that one of the opportunities is just not as exciting as it once was.

I can do the work, but it isn’t interesting or exciting. I don’t wake up excited to go to work. And I used to.

That, for me, is indicator number one for making a decision.

Does the excitement still exist?

No matter what work you do, for yourself or someone else, you should get some sort of inherent excitement and energizement from it.

The other key that I’ve been uncovering is does it help you move toward your highest life? (Or at least away from something that is not a part of your highest life?)

Does the opportunity align with what you want? Does it move you away from something you don’t want?

With one opportunity, I cannot stop thinking about and imagining how it leads to parts of my highest life. A slower-paced life, time spent cultivating relationships with kids (I know I want to adopt), an intentional focus on a healthy lifestyle, and more.

There’s a genuine excitement that comes from this part of my life at the moment, much more than what has come from the other option.

It’s been an interesting experience because as I’ve been considering all of these things, I’ve been realizing that even if I haven’t decided yet, I think part of me has. And that’s okay.

If you grieve for the potential lost, it’s okay to do so.

But do not let an unknown grief cause you more pain than it should.

Step forward confidently and bravely into your future, into the life you are carefully cultivating and building.

When you move, the universe will rise to meet you.

📚 Inspiration and Resources
Every week we all consume content and I share my favorites here.

Reflecting.
A tool that I’ve looked over for far too long is the Reminders app through Apple. This past week I was looking for a to-do list item that I needed to set up with a reminder that I had access to. I had been able to do it previously with Todoist, but dropped the premium subscription as I wasn’t using it. Reminders popped into my head and after some investigation, it was exactly what I needed. I’ve also been using the Health app through Apple, and finding those native apps has been helpful. Give it a try here (especially if you have Apple devices!).

📓 Journaling Prompt
Journaling is one of the most important things to do when exploring our own lives. A new prompt for you to use this week is below.

Have you ever grieved over the loss of possible futures?

Until next time, I wish you enough and send you off with love and a sense of urgency in your life.